Melancholy Delusional Reflections (Coupled With Mundane Musings)

2005-10-20T19:30:00.000-04:00

Annoyed...

2005-09-12T22:58:00.000-04:00

I am annoyed with myself. I think I might have feelings for someone whom I've only met twice. I don't really have any choice in the matter and it pisses me off. It probably would not be a good idea to pursue this anyway. But the feeling won't go away, this desire. Human attraction is quite unwieldy at times. It's just that I don't like having strong feelings that I have no control over.

Oh well, I think I'll just have to relax, blaze up and try not to think about her.

I Agree With...

2005-09-06T01:30:00.000-04:00

This author and this squirrel.

2005-09-01T15:26:00.000-04:00

Holy Fucking Shit...

Ah, What a Relief...

2005-08-29T16:58:00.000-04:00

We're back online.

2005-08-18T03:20:00.000-04:00

Return of The Bling...

2005-08-09T00:13:00.000-04:00

The true face behind neurocam, the Nautonnier, Yellow 1, the Illuminati, and all conspiracies, He is delusion personified:

What The...

2005-08-02T16:49:00.000-04:00

Hell?

Fucking Ozzfest!...

2005-07-24T18:31:00.000-04:00

I went to Ozzfest yesterday. It was the best fucking thing I've been to all fucking year.. That is all I have to say right now.

Also, it seems that neurocam is turning over a new leaf. Will I finally be able to meet Mr. Henley? hmmm...

I Think it's Really Done...

2005-07-19T01:27:00.000-04:00

Tript has taken down his neuro-archives. The entire original narrative history of the 'Cam is now gone. None shall know. The meaningless fades into emptiness. I dodn't think I would feel this bad from just the loss of the archives. Ah well, I guess it's on to other things...

I am Intrigued Reanimator...

2005-07-15T02:08:00.000-04:00

Quite intrigued indeed.

O Neurocam How I Mourn Thee...

2005-07-14T15:40:00.000-04:00

Life had caught up with me. There have been weddings, surgeries, and funerals(in my "real" life). I did not do my last assignment. And I return to find the place is empty. Will you return? Or rather, the real question is will I return? Can I? Something has been lost as time went on. The mystery has never fully blossomed. It faded away. Yet, I can't help but think that I still gained something. The experience is where the question is asked and answered.

Emo: A Mini-Rant...

2005-06-09T02:34:00.000-04:00

Alright here's a little something that's been stewing in my brain for a while.

I was compelled to make this post after watching mtv's(forgive me for I have sinned) "all things rock". Alledged rock video block that they only have on at 4am or whatever. On said "rock" block there was a video by a band called Hawthorne Heights: Ohio is for Lovers. Now I have hated emo for quite a while but this video truly made me want to cry(and not because of the "emotional" content). The wrist cutting lyrics, winy clean vocals, and halfassed wimpy attempt at a metal style scream all come together in an amalgam of shittyness that I think best represents the "genre".

"Emo" is also a very idiotic term for supposed genre of music. All music is emotional. Also, "emo" lyrics mainly focus on sadness and depressing emotions further discrediting the use of the term. Although I guess "winy-ass bitcho" isn't quite a catchy. Furthermore, the supposed "emotions" contained in the music also seem manufactured. "Emo" doesn't even seem to be about real sadness or true pain. I see it as the music of bitching and moaning about past relationships more than anything else.

If you want to listen to some real sad depressing music that's actually "good" listen to Doom metal , it should kick that emo shit right outta your ass.

New Assignment

2005-06-02T00:49:00.000-04:00

I received a new assignment today. It's the one about dead drops. I think a number of other op.'s already received it (or one very similar). I was trying to directly copy/paste the email but I keep getting an error messege(it keeps saying: "these characters are not allowed"). Anyway, this shouldn't be terribly difficult. I've been itching for a new assignment anyway.

Here's a Little Update on What I've Been Up to Lately...

2005-05-26T15:46:00.000-04:00

I haven't been posting much these past few weeks. It's probably because 'Cam activity has been small to nonexistent and I've been quite busy. Anyway here's a little nugget of my life thus far:

I went to a homeschoolers prom thing on the 19th. The prom was nice, but the real highlight of the evening was when the group I was with all went to see Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith. They had already pre-ordered tickets! I was so happy. It kicked major Jedi ass. More talk of the movie will come later.
I also had to go my step-uncle's wedding on the 21st. I was dressed formally for the longest span this entire year.

Also, I was fortunate enough to be able to get an early birthday present a couple of weeks ago in the form of a metallic red Squier bass guitar from a family friend. I have no clue what I'm really doing yet but it's fun. My goal is to become mediocre in a year's time.

Did anyone else watch the season finale of Lost last night? That show is extremely addictive. I think the reason may be that most time on the show is spent on character background and development with a tiny nibble of plot thrown in each episode. This keeps people watching.

Alright well, I'll be around.

STAR WARS!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-18T23:45:00.000-04:00

STAR WARS!!!!!!!!!

My...God...

2005-05-03T02:22:00.000-04:00

I don't get online for a few days and look what I miss. Neville, monkeys, new management. Damn.

Sigh...

2005-04-25T23:00:00.000-04:00

Not a whole lotta posting going on here... Oh well, I've more or less been internalizing the 'Cam lately anyway rather than have an open investigation (partly because I wasn't allowed to, and partly because I didn't want to). I just look for the deeper meanings in my own tasks now.

Although, the community is fun. I've just been hanging back a bit. I just am not very good at personal blogging (Constance is much more entertaining in that regard), and there hasn't been much activity lately, other than the shuffling of Neurocam personnel and talk of the relationships of said personnel and operatives.

Ah well, I shall be around.

Farewell...

2005-04-17T22:44:00.000-04:00

Attention all staff and operatives.

Earlier today Mr. Maxwell Knight, head of Neurocam’s Human Resources
Security Division, tendered his resignation due to personal reasons.
This resignation will be effective as of close of business today
(Monday, April 18 2005).

I would like to take this opportunity to thank Mr. Knight for his
17years of loyal service to Neurocam International. His presence in
the office has always been a reassuring factor for me and he has
brought a highly appreciated debonair flair to the office environment.
His contribution to the day-to-day operations of the organization was
immense and he will be sorely missed.

I hereby wish Mr. Knight all the best with his future endeavors.

Until such time as the position is advertised internally, Ms. Gertrude
Zelle, former assistant to Mr. Knight, will fill the position of Head
of the Human Resources Security Division. Please direct any Human
Resources Security queries directly to Ms. Zelle at
(gertrude.zelle@neurocam.com).

Mr. Knight’s e-mail address will remain active for fourteen days and
all correspondence from it will be forward directly to Ms. Zelle.
After this two week period, Mr. Knight’s e-mail account will be deleted
from our system.

Regards,

Bridget Fischer
Chief Executive Officer
Neurocam International
bridget.fischer@neurocam.com

2005-04-14T23:41:00.000-04:00

Before you die, you see the ring... ( This is me looking all Sadako with my friend's crappy camera)

Inhuman...

2005-04-12T00:17:00.000-04:00

Here's a little something that's been floating around in my head for a while:

I don't understand the term "inhuman". So called "inhuman" actions seem to constantly occur. So it seems to me that those actions may be intrinsically human. They are fully human, that is why we fear them so. So we have to deny the perpetrators of deplorable acts their humanity by calling them "monsters", "sociopaths" and yes "inhuman". We don't want to even be associated by species to those individuals. But this is false. Evil and cruelty are wholly human traits. Animals don't have the capacity to feel like we do. Emotions complicate everything, but there must be a reason for their existence.

I think that we must realize that those people are products of us. Violence is cyclical. Serial murderers, pedophiles, and sadists were all children once. Had we gone through situations similar to what "inhumans" had we would end up with idiosyncrasies quite similar to theirs I believe.

Anyway, I believe humanity must approach these issues without pretense. We must all come to realize that the potential for the purest evils exist within us all, and we must learn to deal with it.

Noir, Life...and annoyance...

2005-04-04T03:09:00.000-04:00

Haven't posted much in a bit...oh well. Been busy, life tends to catch up with you sometimes...

Anywho,
I recently received some books I ordered. I was intrigued by what I had read about Andrew Vachss and his Burke Series so I decided to order the first two novels. I'm over halfway done with Flood and I think I'll stick with the series for a bit. I'm a sucker for noir. I haven't really looked into the classics much though, I think I'll have to. I also rounded out my vamp chronicles with the final volume in the series. I haven't heard great things about it though, so I'll have to read and see. I can't believe that Ms. Rice could've completely lost it though, at least I don't want to.

On to other matters,

I also discovered videogame emulators the other day, that made me a happy boy(and ate my time).

Also, the group message from Beltaine or Harry or RHNC or WETF(whoever-the-fuck) was fucking annoying. In fact the whole damn situation pissed me off. I really don't give a flying fuck about it at all so when I get an annoying email about something I don't care about I fly into an uncontrollable rage!...Ahhh, okay I feel better now.

Happy Eoster!

2005-03-27T19:37:00.000-05:00

It's a bit late but oh well...

Disregard...

2005-03-23T00:48:00.000-05:00

Disregard my last post, for all the information contained therein no longer applies. New Hely numbers again: 445778. I think a larger post may be in the near future...

New Numbahs...No Assignment...

2005-03-19T00:03:00.000-05:00

R. Red Breast has been updated again. I think it's a different grey now and there are new numbers: 546 890. Anyone care to try and crack the code?

Anywho, I haven't gotten any assignments or communications from the 'Cam of any sort since Feb. 24th(wah). I didn't complete the training exercise, I hope I'm not kicked out. I want a new assignment. Oh well, we shall see what tomorrow brings...

ITHINKINOWOYOUARE...

2005-03-17T22:06:00.000-05:00

Beltaine, you have become quite suspect in my eyes. The post about the alleged betrayal of Delta doesn't really prove anything. Your first posts were interesting but now I almost get the feeling that you are the one manufacturing most of this "RH/UNOWHOIAM " business, if not the character himself. Are you impersonating people in the comments of your blog? And why is Sub-Xero so damn upset? This whole thing is strange and identities are questionable.

Anyway, uno/rh/whoever is annoying and I'm going to cease paying attention to the whole affair from this post onward.

2005-03-15T20:58:00.000-05:00

Oh, welcome to this world of fools
Of pink champagne and swimming pools
Well, all you have to lose is your virginity
Perhaps we'll have some fun tonight
So stick around and take a bite of life
We don't need feebleness in this proximity

Ask good MacDuff and Donalbain,
So many good ideas are slain
By those who would dare not step out of line
But if I have my way tonight
And chances are I think I might-
I'll turn those sour minds to grapes of wine

Welcome to this world

Don't judge the boy by what you hear
The words are heard beyond the ear
The heart and mind are focus for this conversation
But be abound in mystery for that so much you do to me
For there are those who drown in adulation

Welcome to this world

If I had a dime for each time that I heard them preach
Well I'd have wicked thoughts upon my brain

INOWHOYOURNOT...

2005-03-13T22:17:00.000-05:00

There are some strange events unfolding involving the mildly entertaining, slightly annoying and seemingly insane "UNOWHIAM/RH" character. He seems to be sending odd and slightly creepy emails to various neurobloggers( I feel so left out). Is he a Robin Hely imposter? Is he impersonating Robert Henley? Is he actually one of them? Is he neither? Who knows?

What we do know is that he is unstable, or at least trying to look it. Hell, he's probably just some idiot trying to get a rise out of the neuro-crowd.

Anyway, there is more on Beltaine's blog. And here's a creepy email that Lady J recieved.

In other neuro-news - Q seems to have retired his blog. He was always said to be "The Man on the Outside" what with being an interested party but never actually becoming an operative, yet he has posted two strange seemingly 'Cam related pictures and this latin phrase: "Quis custodiet ipsos custodies" in lieu of his blog. The latin apparently means "Who Will Guard the Guardians?" and the pictures imply that he may have been more involved than he let on.

New Op. Doo Wop...

2005-03-10T22:20:00.000-05:00

Recent operative Beltaine has had an interesting correspondence with Chuck. It seems to add more insight into the 'Cam's distrust of Robin Hely, if what Iocus said to Lady J can be trusted. It was also nice to see someone with the balls to put the 'Cam under fire to see what would happen (I know I didn't).

Anyways, now I have to go fiddle with the links and add Beltaine and some others...

P.S.
There's something weird going on when I try to post comments...

Epiphany...

2005-03-09T16:39:00.000-05:00

I figured something out the other day. I think I understand the inner-universe. I can't quite articulate it but I understand something better I know that. I was listening to coast to coast and the guest was talking about how inner knowledge can reveal outer concepts about the universe. When you can truly reach inside yourself the wall between the inner and outer breaks down. There is no difference between the inner and outer at that point. Suffice it to say something clicked and I became a little less depressed. I saw a vision in my head...and I understood.

#438945

2005-03-06T21:16:00.000-05:00

The boy wonder has been updated yet again. It now has a link to "traverse". It seems as if it's supposed to be an image of some sort. Firefox prompted to download the file and windows can't seem to recognize it. I tried to open it with msword and it came out as a bunch of gibberish. Also, the file apparently broke Xul Solar's browser.

Strange...

Update:
The file is a disguised quicktime movie. To watch it correctly you need to rename the file once downloaded with a .mp4 extension and have quicktime. Apparently it won't work right with anything else. View the comments of this post for more information.

Brain Overflow...

2005-03-04T23:55:00.000-05:00

Here we go.

No discernible meaning, just like life. What the hell is going on? The world is always falling into the worst of times and has the greatest potential for the best of times all at the same fucking time. No direction. No goal. I can't figure it out. It just is. Oh but things can change. But it's all cyclical. Things change for the "better" for some , for the "worse" for others. All with no discernible meaning. Fuck it. What do we have but an existence predicated on lies? If you think about the nature of "truth" to long it will hurt your brain. I think objectivity may be an illusion, though I hope it isn't. Thoughts cooking in my head...too long. They're overflowing from the pot now. What can I say? Religion may be the most destructive force invented by humanity. Well maybe not the most but at the very least one of the first massively divisive thought patterns to hit us. Money: corporations, governments, and religious groups become one in the same.

Can we break down the walls we build up around ourselves? I don't know if I even have enough faith in humanity to achieve a true shift in consciousness. Can peace be achieved without oppression? I don't think it can. Freedom is a bloody commodity. I don't know, maybe we just always have and have always had a propensity towards violence proportionate to population. But the basic response to revile it makes me think otherwise. No answers. Descruction can be a form of creation.

So, in my rebellion against my religious past I take on the mantle of darkness. A form of it at least. To experience that which is supposed to be evil and to realize that "good" and "evil" can be taken many different ways. Though I think the true evil is the destruction of individual choice. It all comes down to free will. And I'm glad Eve partook of the fruit of the tree. If god exists in the form Christianity teaches, I hate him with all of being.

Nonsensical Diatribe ends here.

Adventures in Chelonia...

2005-02-28T00:33:00.000-05:00

As per request of Constance :

The last couple of days I've been cleaning my turtle enclosures. And here's some advice - if you want a turtle, please think it over before you buy a semi-aquatic one. My red eared slider has to have given me more problems and is the most complicated to clean the enclosure than all my animals. Every time I clean it I have to empty the tank of water, dismantle the filter, thoroughly rinse and or replace filter materials and then reassemble everything. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have all the others to take care of. Also I didn't want the turtle myself, I got him from some people who weren't taking proper care of him, and the damn things are so common that I can't find anyone who would really want him.

I have also had two incidents related to the turtle in which water damage had occurred in the ceiling of my kitchen (underneath my bedroom). Although the ceiling was already cracked and most of the damage had occurred from the bathroom flooding, turtle water pouring through my bedroom floor certainly didn't help matters. We have since had the ceiling repaired as it became quite unsettling to be able to see above the plaster as the ceiling bowed downward. My bedroom carpet also stank for days. Oh well, such is the life of a herper.

As for my tortoise, I have to mix my own dirt from soil or coir and sand, use a 35$ light bulb and always have greens in the house. I can easily deal with dirt. Water always makes things more difficult in my opinion.

Sometimes the everyday work of herping can be grinding, but in the end having "happy" animals makes it all worthwhile.

Oh and in Neuro-news:

The accounts of the famed Melbourne multi-op assignment last week are finally allowed to become public. And due to my laziness I'll just post a link to Teigan's Trysting Fields. A copy of the assignment paper and links to other operatives' reports are all there.

Traversal...

2005-02-26T02:20:00.000-05:00

A couple of things I noticed from ole Robby Red Breast:

Did anyone else notice the "Traverse" photos of "Robert Henley" and "Luigi Murana" are the same pictures used in this animation, supposedly of "Dean Godman" and "Iocus Severus" respectively? A "Rose" (Zoe Rose?) is also mentioned in said animation.

Hmm....tid bits.

The animation is from EgoTript's archive. He recieved it from Iocus I assume?

Traverse?...

2005-02-25T17:03:00.000-05:00

Long time no neuro-post huh. Lady j has speculated that the lack of posts from neuro-bloggers may be from some deciding to be silent thus gaining a "better" experience (though this has since been debunked by Ms. Fischer). This was not the case with me anyway, well maybe slightly but mainly my lack of posts is due to my laziness.

Robin Hely has the most interesting update yet. "Spycam Profane Entertainment"...interesting. That's pretty much it other than I have not yet gotten the "entrances" assignment. There's more R.H. discussion over at the neuroboard and from the aforementioned and ever informative lady j.

Well that's it for now.

GOD IS NOW HERE

2005-02-22T02:27:00.000-05:00

Miracles is coming out on DVD! I'm ecstatic! And it's about fuckin' time.
Great show. Could of been a great long running series. Should never have been cancelled.

They Made Me Do It

2005-02-20T18:17:00.000-05:00

I just watched my new Donnie Darko director's cut dvd. That film ranks extremely high on my favorite movie list. Very interesting concepts touched on in that film. Everyone should watch it.

The "#1 Fan Darkomentary" is quite disturbing though. Moreso than the film itself(lol).

It makes me happy that some people can still make great movies.

Rejection...

2005-02-18T00:31:00.000-05:00

I just found this. It seems to be yet another tale of rejection from neurocam. Could they be slowing down? Maybe they needed to be able to keep track of operatives better.

The reason I say so is that my application had much less work put into it than may others. I didn't even record my events from the day. I told them (cleverly IMHO) that I could not possibly write down everything that happened between 4:00-9:00. That got me in and here I am today. I had not really found any of the blogs about the 'cam (I was introduced to neurocam from argn.com and the unfiction thread at it's inception) so wasn't nearly as serious as some of the new ops lately but I still got in. They seem to be slightly more scrutinizing today.

Conchis-ness, Reptiles...

2005-02-16T23:16:00.000-05:00

I just finished reading The Magus today. I am unable to articulate my conclusions about the book. I think that's the entire point though. It is a grand story with extravagant and grandiose situations used to tell simple truths. But I think that may be the best medium for the understanding of these truths to be achieved. To be asked a question with no answer. To be taught a lesson with no limit or blatant goal. To be put through the metaphorical (and actual) ringer, so to speak. To think. To experience. To love.

On a lighter note, I've been discussing my reptilian friends on Constance's blog and haven't really talked about them here. I feel it's time to do so.
I have been keeping reptiles for I guess about five years now(it doesn't seem nearly that long). It all started when I bought a leopard gecko instead of a gameboy for my birthday one year. I was at my local reptile show for the first time and I had no idea what I was even looking for except that I wanted a gecko. Fate (or providence) led me to a booth with leopard geckos. Leo's are thankfully about the best beginner lizard you can get.
I was hooked from then on.
A little later I wanted a snake and caught a garter and kept it (something I probably wouldn't do now). I have since acquired a corn snake, another (female) leo, a rescued red eared slider, a kenyan sand boa, and a russian tortoise. Their names are:
geckos - Bubba and Lilly
garter snake - Panther
corn snake - Ruby
red eared slider - Speed
kenyan sand boa - unnamed
russian tortoise - Putin

Well, that's it for now. More reptile stuff to come.

Cigaro...

2005-02-13T20:38:00.000-05:00

New system of a down song is fuckin crazy. It's also awesome. Quite intelligent lyrics too ("MY COCK IS MUCH BIGGER THAN YOURS!") lol, not. But something about it, gotta listen and I'm not sure why.

In Neuro-news:
There are some strange goings on involving Young Atom, a new blogger, and some questionable 'cam-related information. More details can be found at Teigan and Delta's blogs. It seems to have evolved from the Anna Shmitt incident. I don't know what's going on but, whatever.

Also, corndogs taste good.

Stuff...

2005-02-11T00:52:00.000-05:00

There are now two new discussion forums dedicated to the 'cam (links under "NeuroCommunity"). Hopefully these will provide a place for op.s who can't or don't want to blog to stay up to date.
I'm about halfway through The Magus and I have to say, it's a great book.
Questioning our reality is always fun. I think that's part of the reason why the 'cam is so appealing. But it seems only a certain type of person can deal with the questions that arise from such dealings. I think that's who They want to attract.
In other news, well, there isn't much. I need to hang out with less idiots. And I need a job, gots ta get tha cheddar yo.

*listening to Candlemass*

New Assignment...

2005-02-08T14:29:00.000-05:00

The 'cam sent me a new training exercise. It has something to do with covert training.
In other news:
I got the first dvd of Samurai Champloo the other day. The level of ass-kickery on that show is awesome. I recommend that anyone who likes cowboy bebop or kenshin go buy it( as it is their bastard child in a sense).

Strange...

2005-02-07T20:48:00.000-05:00

I found this a little while ago while googling for 'cam info. Also, a related blog archive here (apparently a friend of Tript's). Here is an excerpt:

"Dear Kate,

DO NOT get involved with Neurocam. It is NOT a game. Neurocam is a joint Australia/New Zealand military-industrial initiative that seeks to exploit recent developments in Neurological programming to remotely influence thought. You may well imagine the implications of this. You have been warned. I fear it is already too late for your friend Steve "Tript"

Yours Sincerely,
Iocus Severus
12/22/04 06:52pm"

Seems strange Iocus here is acting more like Oulios. I found it odd to embed 'cam-related conversations in a bittorrent discussion. Anybody else know anything about this?

Isn't it lovely.....

2005-02-06T12:09:00.000-05:00

to be wanted? I recieved the same report confirmation as the others it seems. I'll post it anyway:

Dear Operative Chase One

Your report for Neurocam Assignment NCI-2332/01 has been received and
filed.

Neurocam International appreciates the unorthodox nature of this
assignment and your willingness to continue your association with the
organization despite this unusual request.

You will receive the details of your next assignment shortly.

Regards,

Charles Hastings
Head, Operations Division
Neurocam International
operations@neurocam.com

Wew, he didn't "go all Bridget Fischer on my ass"

Boo Hoo....NEUROCAM ASSIGNMENT NCI-2332/01-Incomplete

2005-02-04T22:59:00.000-05:00

Well, I submitted the report for my assignment today, incomplete. Why incomplete you ask? Well suffice it to say there were outside factors. Oh well, hopefully my standing within the organization won't be affected.
Tomorrow's another day I guess...

Oh my...

2005-02-02T16:07:00.000-05:00

It seems my little inquiry has Ms. Fischer upset (more with Neville than me). Though she does answer to a degree. See below:

Dear Chase One,

Although I appreciate your contacting me, Mr. Neville Harris was quite
remiss in suggesting that such a course of action was appropriate. I
have
neither the time nor inclination to deal with such trivial enquiries.

I do not hold you responsible for this indiscretion and will shortly
raise
the matter with Mr. Harris directly. In the future, however, I would
suggest that you limit your correspondence with me to matters of
greater
importance.

As you have already, through no fault of your own, wasted a moment of
my
time, I will address your question The origins of the name Neurocam
are
known only to the organizations founders. Those individuals no longer
participate in the day-to-day running of the organization, thus I am
unable to provide you with an answer to your question.

Regards,

Bridget Fischer
Chief Executive Officer
Neurocam International
bridget.fischer@neurocam.com

Even though she said it wasn't my fault, I think I'm going to back off for a while.

All philosophical on your ass...

2005-02-02T00:24:00.000-05:00

I'm beginning to realize that Neurocam needs no definition. It is what it is. A platform on which to escape a mundane routine for a little mystery. A mirror. A revealing of the secret society of our own minds. Propagation of a myth with no origin. A mystery with no solution yet we create the solution (contradiction). Metaphor for the unknown.

As for other things, I would like to know if there are any other young operatives (I'm 17).

New Mail...

2005-01-31T16:47:00.000-05:00

I got an answer (or lack of one) from Neville Harris today for a question I posed about what the "cam" in Neurocam meant:

Dear Chase One

I am afraid I cannot be particularly helpful on this matter. The
origins and true meaning of the name Neurocam are unknown to all but a
select few within the organization. Even level 4 operatives like myself
do not have access to any information like that. You could try asking
Bridget Fischer but I doubt she would shed any light on the matter.

Sorry to be so unhelpful

Neville Harris
Administration
Neurocam International
neville.harris@neurocam.com

On 31/01/2005, at 1:43 PM, Chase Castro wrote:

> Dear Neurocam,
> I have a question that has been bothering me for a
> while. Since Neurocam has nothing to do with any
> type of camera etc. What does the "cam" in Neurocam
> stand for? Please answer as clearly as security
> parameters allow.
> Thanks,
> Chase One

Does anyone have Bridget's email( I can't seem to find it)?

Wtf?

2005-01-30T18:32:00.000-05:00

The sneaker pimp? Wtf?!? Now they're just screwing with us.

Yay!

2005-01-30T18:04:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I was finally able to do part of my assignment. I tracked down two copies of "The Magus" at the bookstore and bought the smaller paperback for myself. So far it's a very interesting read. I shall see if the insight I gain from the book will help with my dealings with the 'cam.

Ehh...

2005-01-28T22:52:00.000-05:00

I can't get out of my goddamn house! I've been living mostly on the net and reading. Also, no new 'cam news!(except that robinhely.com seems to have turned into some kind of daily "neuro-clue") I need to get out of here! But the family vehicle is making strange noises, and it's fucking COLD! The ice is no good. I just wanted to track down at least one copy of "The Magus" and possibly buy a copy if there were more. But it looks like that may not happen. Oh well, we'll just have to wait and see how other assignments pan out.

The Rabbit Hole

2005-01-28T00:23:00.000-05:00

Here is a posting of all the nonassignment related emails I got from the 'cam in response to my various enquiries(in no particular order):
1:
In response to a question I posed about the nature of neurocam's operations within the U.S. and the nature of the 'cam itself:

Dear Applicant Chase.

Thank you for your correspondence.

In response to your query I have been directed to inform you of the
following -

Neurocam International is a multifaceted organization with offices
throughout the world. We have thousands of employees operating in
countries such as Australia, New Zealand, The United States Of America,
Nigeria, Nairobi, Japan, Netherlands, Germany and Britain. Residency
in
Australia is not a pre-requisite of ongoing Neurocam participation.

In addition, regarding your request for further information on the
nature
of Neurocam, I have been authorized to reveal to you that Neurocam is a
process of unveiling. Understanding is achieved through experience.
Operatives are invited to participate in assignments designed to
facilitate this process. Neurocam is not a marketing ploy, nor does it
have any political, religious or corporate affiliations. Beyond this,
the
onus is on the operative to either achieve understanding or to pursue
whatever investigative trajectories they deem appropriate. Be warned,
however, that the latter invariably leads to mystification and
frustration.

Regards,

Maxwell Knight
Head, Human Resources Security Division
Neurocam International
maxwell.knight@neurocam.com

2:
In regards to a question about any connections the 'cam seems to have to Innnocence and splint:

Dear Applicant Chase

I would like to inform you that Neurocam International does not have
any
connections with Splint and Innocence. These art projects have been
used
in the past during some of our assignments as interesting backdrops to
important internal operations.

We do not discourage operatives from investigating some of the more
interesting conceptual elements of Splint and Innocence, but be aware
that
any such research or participation will not further an operatives
progress
within Neurocam. To succeed with Neurocam one must simply carry out all
of
the assignments to the best of one's abilities.

Kind Regards

Bridget Fischer
Neurocam International

3:
The answer to the question, "Who is Robert Henley?":

Dear Chase One

Robert Henley is a Neurocam Operative currently working in Brussels.

Regards

Neville Harris
Administration
Neurocam International

More will be posted as I deem fit.

Well...

2005-01-27T17:38:00.001-05:00

I seem to be becoming more and more infatuated with Christina from Lacuna Coil (my god, she is the picture of perfection no?)the more I look at her and listen to them. Anyway, as for the 'cam: The emails from Oulios on EgoTript's blog are unnerving but they innevitably peeked my curiosity all the more. What's that saying about the cat again? Well it would've died eventually anyway whether it had fulfilled it's curiosity or not, and without knowledge. Which would've been worse?

Not much to say....

2005-01-24T21:39:00.000-05:00

So, I'm having a bit of trouble with my first assignment but it seems "they" are understanding. Anyway, I've been watching law & order a lot today and it reinforces my belief that our justice system is quite contradictory. But "justice" in and of itself may be more subjective then many would like admit. Oh well, on to more cage cleaning, reading and t.v. watching.
Later

Welcome to the World of Tomorrow!

2005-01-23T18:06:00.000-05:00

Herein lies my newly created mark on the web of communication that connects us all yet separates us as well. I will post my various musings and observations as well as my experiences with the phenomenon of a shadowy organization known only as Neurocam. All this will happen as often as I feel like doing it. I have no obligation to anyone who would read this (if anyone reads this) to keep up with the 'cam, there are already numerous blogs written by more talented people than I who are doing just that. I am doing this only for myself as I am bored, and feel like I need someplace to vent my various twisted thoughts and revelations (related to the 'cam and otherwise). So, here it is.